Future

I'm entering my senior year of highschool and getting bombarded with a whole assortment of emotions. Part of me is scared to have everything I've ever known get shaken up a year from now as I enter college. Part of me is excited for independence. The maternal part of me wants to jump ahead ten years and start a family. This year is going to be so bittersweet, and I have to find a balance of being excited for the future but not wishing time away. Above all, I need to find peace in God's plan!

Thoughts

I am shellshocked and heartbroken by the act of terror in France. Anymore these days I'm finding it hard to see good in the world from the petty disaster of the presidential election in the US to horrific events like this massacre, everything seems to be falling apart. 83 people will not get to live their lives another day. They all had families and loved ones. For all I know, that could be me. Life is such a strange thing and there's no knowing when it might come to an end. The people watching the fireworks had no clue that by going to an enjoyable event they would be spending their last minutes.

More than ever I know I need to place my hope in Jesus. I'm scared about the future of our world. I'm struggling with doubts. But with every terrible thing that happens I just get more affirmed that above it all I need need need to place hope in the fact that our Heavenly Father has this all in control. No matter how much work the Devil is doing, God will win in the end. It's up to us, his followers, to pray and spread love and serve Him to te best of our ability now.

God, help calm the hearts and souls of the hurt families in France. Help me to overcome my doubts and to serve out your plan for my life. Help me, and the rest of the world, to see that you're in control of it all. Amen.

Black lives MATTER

I'm am sickened by the recent shootings the police committed on two innocent black men. You say racism is dead? Try again, two men just died for the color of their skin.

If it hasn't been apparent until now, it should be crystal clear after the past two days that 1) gun control needs to be amped up, 2) police need better training on not racially profiling and not jumping to use firearms, and 3) the whole nation needs to take a look at racism and how far we have to go and why we're still stuck in a rut. It baffles me that someone could so quickly judge someone based on the pigmentation of another's skin.

A protest will be taking place in our community soon, and I urge anyone and everyone to join me, my family, and our wonderful friends of all colors in attending local protests against violence on the black people of our nation. I hope to see you all standing with me to make a statement that its time for a more equal and fair country.